ham samay aane par isakee chinta karenge


unhonne kaha ki vah apane bolt chaahate the. isaka spasht roop se matalab hai ki vah mujhe isake alaava any kaaranon se band karana chaahate the. seks. main lagabhag dar ummeed hai ki vah mere lie bhee gir raha tha. mujhe aisa nahin lagata. dekhie, mujhe aapake aane mein koee dikkat nahin hai, tushaar. main sirph yah gaarantee nahin de sakata ki ham bhaag sakate hain aur yadi aap aate hain to bhee baahar kar sakate hain. mujhe pata hai. lekin ... kya hoga agar main abhee bhee aana chaahata hoon? sirf tumhe dekhane.
yah ek saptaah se adhik ho gaya hai ... mainne tumhen yaad kiya hai, unhonne kaha, mere dil ko haraakar. itana pyaara hai, mainne kaha, kaan se kaan tak muskuraate hue. usane mujhe bhee yaad kiya! usane mujhe bhee yaad kiya! lekin mujhe abhee bhee nahin lagata ki aapako aana chaahie. yah ek ghante kee lambee draiv hai, aur aap pahale se hee haal hee mein kie gae sabhee kaam se thak chuke hain. tumhe aaraam kee jarurat hai. theek hai. main ise le sakata hoon. main aa raha hoon. main aapako dekhane ke lie ab aur intajaar nahin kar sakata. tushaar ke yahaan hone par main seedhe aapake paas aaoonga. mat aao.

prem is prakaar hai, Part-2

Lekin main sota hoon, main tumhen jagaoonga. apane hotal mein gaya, vah tha ki mujhe use jagaane kee zaroorat nahin thee. jab pahale se hee. are, unhonne kaha, aur mujhe door karane ke lie chale gae haay. aapako neend nahin aaee? mainne kiya. kol ke theek baad. abhee aadha ghanta pahale utha. kya aapane abhee tak apana dinar kiya hai? nahin. main yahaan seedhe aaya tha. tum kha nahin kiya hai? nahin. main aapaka intazaar kar raha tha. vaastav mein? mainne poochha, hairaanee kee baat hai. aur chhua. nahin! mujhe neend aa rahee thee, yaad tha? jab tum aae the to uthe the aur snaan kiya tha: .. aur main tumhaare saath bhojan karana chaahata tha. mainne muskaraaya. hamane room sarvis ko kol kiya aur ek dinar saajha kiya. yah achchha laga, yah rishta-haalaanki uthala yah kisee teesare vyakti ko lag sakata hai-bahut poora tha. yah ek vaastavik premika-premee sambandh ke sabhee bhatte the, keval aseem roop se garm seks ke saath. shoony aur upadrav sabhee shoony. plas joda bonas-ham vaastav mein ek doosare kee kampanee ko pasand karate hain. isalie aisa nahin tha ki jaise hee ham doosare vyakti ke saath bhaagate hain, vaise hee ham seks ke saath bhaag jaate hain. isake vipareet, pahale aur baad ke kshan bhee majedaar the. vah tha vaastav mein ek dilachasp vyakti tha aur mujhe usase baat karana bahut pasand tha. vah un logon mein se ek hai jinake saath aap aisa mahasoos karate hain ki aap vaastav mein mana sakate hain. mainne use apane iph-kariyar, ejent, shaadee ke lie parivaar ke dabaav jaisee cheejon ke baare mein bataaya. usane suna. aur unhonne maamalon par apana drshtikon diya. yah taaza tha. aur yadyapi usane mujhe apane shoot aur sab kuchh ke baare mein baaten bataeen, lekin vah kabhee jyaada vistaar mein nahin gaya. mainne bhee nahin kiya. hamaare paas itana samay kabhee nahin tha. jab bhee ham ek saath hote the, ham hamesha anabatan ya anajiping mein vyast rahate the. aur jab ham saath nahin the, to koee phon kol nahin tha, koee tekst maisej nahin tha, koee eemel nahin tha, soshal netavark ke jarie sampark nahin tha. is tarah ke rishte ke khataron mein se ek mujhe usase baat karane ke lie kabhee nahin mila, jab tak ki main vaastav mein usase nahin mila. mujhe nahin pata ki usane isase kaise nipata. ke lie ek hee karane mein bahut kathinaee thee.

prem is prakaar hai, Part-2

 ya shaayad yah isalie tha kyonki main pyaar mein akela tha. main bistar mein usake lie intajaar kar raha tha kyonki usane plet ko saaph karane vaale vetar ko ittala de dee thee. jab vah chala gaya to tushaar meree taraph aaya. hamesha mujhe thand lag jaatee thee, use dekhate hue vah meree or badhata tha, yah jaanane ke baad ki kya hoga. pratyaasha. mainne use apanee tee kee nekalain se apanee or kheencha aur usane mujhe bistar par dhakka de diya. phir vah mere oopar chadh gaya aur mere sir ko pakad liya. kya mainne tumase kaha tha, tum aaj bahut khoobasoorat lag rahee ho? "mainne sharamaate hue kaha aur kuchh bhee nahin. gh aur ki main ise pyaar karata hoon jab tum sharamaate ho? mainne phir se sharamaaya, phir bhee kuchh nahin kaha. usane meree aankhon mein dekha aur jhukane se pahale muskuraaya aur meree naak ko sahalaaya.  tum bahut pyaare ho, unhonne kaha. aur phir usane mujhe chooma. ek chumban sab yah mujhe kuchh any duniya ke lie sthaanaantaran karane ke lie le gaya. usane mujhe adhik shakti us tarah ka tha. baar ham chumban tod diya, main shuroo kar diya tha haiparaventilet. main thoda peechhe chala gaya aur usakee aankhon mein dekha. usane meree takatakee ko pakad liya kyonki theld ne use apanee tee-shart se baahar kar diya aur apanee ungaliyon ko usakee peeth par chala diya, use paas kheench raha hai. usane meree spegetee ko pakade hue land ko pakad kar kheencha. aur phir usane mujhe kha liya. har sparsh, har chumban, har kaatane .. sab kuchh vah mere lie kiya tha mujhe svarg mein seedhe bheja hai. tushaar ne jis tarah se mujhe phaalt kiya tha kisee ne nahin kiya. usakee ungaliyon ne mere chaaron or jaadoo bun diya, usake sparsh ne mujhe aur adhik tarasane ke lie chhod diya. ham tab tak kuchh samay ke lie baahar ho gae the, lekin har baar jab mujhe laga ki isase behatar nahin ho sakata, to usane mujhe chaunka diya. har baar pichhalee baar se behatar tha. ya shaayad yah hamaare aur ek-doosare ke prati hamaaree bhaavanaon ke kaaran tha. jaise-jaise samay beetata gaya, hamaara bandhan majaboot hota gaya. bhale hee ham us anakahe samajhaute ko pyaar mein na paden, jo ki main pahale se hee gupt tha, chupake se toot gaya-mujhe laga ki ham ek-doosare ke lie nahin vyaapaar ke lie bahut door aa gae hain. mujhe laga ki vah mere lie thoda gir gaya hai. ya shaayad yah sirph ichchhaadhaaree soch thee. aadhe ghante baad, jab vah mere bagal mein so raha tha, usake haathon mein se ek laaparavaahee se abhee tak ajeeb tarah se mere kamar par pada tha, main chhat par khada tha, vyaapak jaag raha tha. ek vichaar ne mere dimaag par raaj kiya-vah mujhase pyaar karata tha. oh, vah mujhase bahut pyaar karata tha. keval ek cheej use sveekaar karane se rok rahee thee taaki vah jaan sake ki ham taareekh nahin kar sakate. aur sakhtee se shaareerik vyavastha ke lie hamane use apanee bhaavanaon se door rahane ka laisens diya tha, jab tak vah chaahata tha. jab bhee vah shahar mein tha, usake saath vah mere paas tha, aur usake lie usake lie kaaphee kuchh lag raha tha. aisa nahin ki mainne dimaag lagaaya. hamaaree vyavastha mere lie theek chal rahee thee aur mujhe achchha samay mil raha tha. aur jab se main usake lie apanee khud kee bhaavanaon kee teevrata ke baare mein nishchit nahin tha, tab tak main jaldabaajee mein nahin tha ... jab tak ki yah bhavishy mein kabhee nahin hua. mujhe lagata hai ki vah mere lie pyaar tha, aur main use sveekaar karane ke lie intajaar karane ko taiyaar tha. bhavishy kya hota hai, yah koee nahin jaanata. shaayad ham saath ho lenge. shaayad ham nahin karenge. yah abhee koee phark nahin padata. abhee nahin.ham samay aane par isakee chinta karenge. main apanee taraph muda aur use sote hue dekha. main aage badhee use gaal par halke se chumban karana. vaapas aakar, mainne usakee chhaatee par sir tikaaya, aankhen band keen aur muskuraaya. narak. main kise bevakooph bana raha tha? kya mainne kaha ki main usake lie apanee bhaavanaon kee teevrata ke baare mein nishchit nahin tha? khair, main abhee vaastavikata se door bhaag raha tha. usake lie meree bhaavanaon kee teevrata amaanaveey thee. usake lie mera junoon tivalait-star tha. mujhe nishchit roop se usase bahut pyaar tha.