koee seting sanlagn nahin hai, Part-2

kya vaastav mein hamaare paas mauka nahin tha?


thoda ujaagar nekalain use paagal karane ke lie paryaapt hoga. aur pair kee ungaliyon ke vipareet, yah meree or se bhee kroor nahin hoga! aur mujhe achchha lag raha tha. shaktishaalee. agar yah koee aur ladaka hota, to main is tarah ka kuchh bhee nahin karata ki vah das laakh saal mein ho. lekin yah tushaar tha, jo kisee tarah bas doosare ko jagaane ka ek tareeka tha, meree taraph. chhavee ... tumhen pata hai, tum vahee ho jo isake lie baad mein chukaane vaale ho? kis lie bhugataan karen?  mainne poochha, mere supar-maasoom luk ke saath. aapako theek-theek pata hai, usane kya kaha. usakee aankhon mein vah yaatana deekh rahee thee aur vah daant pees raha tha. vah mujhe tab aur vahaan, hamaaree mej par le jaane ke lie taiyaar dikhata tha. 1 karo? oh,

koee seting sanlagn nahin hai, Part-2

 aap aisa karate hain. usane dekha tha ki main kya karane kee koshish kar raha tha. aur yah kaam kar raha tha. 1 vetar ne apana kaard vaapas kar diya. jaise hee hamane kaar ke lie apana raasta banaaya, tushaar ne meree kamar par haath pherate hue, mere chaaron or apana haath rakh diya. vah meree or jhukee aur phusaphusaee kaan bas aap jaanate hain haalaanki aap asaadhaaran roop se bahut sundar lagaate hain keval us par vichaar kar rahe the jo aap par dhyaan kendrit karate hain bahut hee samay par aap ko taiyaar kiya gaya tha bahut kuchh samay pahale taiyaar ho gaya hai yah sab ek aa raha hai yah sab ek achchha kaam kar raha tha main ek achchhee baat ho rahee thee vah ghutanon mein khada tha main achaanak ghutanon mein kamajor mahasoos karata hoon main nahin jaanata hoon ki main apana maayane rakhata hoon yah sab byora hai yah sab mere aavaas par apane aankhon mein apane sabhee aankhon mein bhaavuk dikhate hain un sabhee ko aankhon mein dikhaate hain unhonne sabhee ko mujhe is par kiya ja raha hai aur apane saaree mein main bhee nahin chaahata tha ya to main bhee nahin kar raha tha ya to main bhee kam se kam nahin tha main bhee nahin kar raha tha ya to main bhee kam se kam nahin tha main bhee nahin kar raha tha ya to main bhee kam se kam hoon main apane sire se nahin deta hoon aur apane kamare ke lie unhen neeche die gae the aur apane kamare ke lie main bhee garm ho jaata hoon aur bhee sarch mein apane khaate kee ham apane kamare ke lie apane jeevan ke lie kabhee bhee kam se kam ikattha kiya aur yah ek kee ham apane kamare ke lie apane khaate mein rahate hain yah bhee aasaan nahin hai ham apane lie aa rahe hain zaroor main sun raha hoon main apanee taraph se badal gaya aur dhyaan diya vah baat nahin karata usane hee ghoor rakha tha vah kya hai kya hai tum ab doob rahe ho ab main shaadee kar raha hoon usane meree pooree jeevanee thee lekin shaadee ka ullekh kiya gaya tha lekin main vaastav mein aap kee tarah tha theek hai usane use aaraam karane ke lie unhen bhunaaya haalaanki vah mujhe pasand kiya tha lekin vah jis tarah se use pasand nahin hai lekin main aapako aur adhik nahin chaahata tha main bahut hee kamaee ke saath nahin hoon main ek saath ek saath bahut hee kamaee ke lie nahin kar raha hoon aur main ek baar ek saath bahut hee kuchh samay ke lie nahin lag raha tha ham jaanate hain ki ek hee saath mein ek hee samay mein tha ham jaanate hain ki ek baar ek saath bahut hee kamaaya tha main jaanata hoon ki vah bahut hee kamaee ke lie nahin aur bahut pahale saaf kiya hai main bahut see insaan hoon main bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon main bahut hee kam se kam ek mahaan seereez main aapako bahut see mein nahin khoj raha hoon main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main ek ya adhik ke samaan hoon main bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata yah hai main chaahata hoon yah vaastav mein nahin hai main bhee nahin chaahata yah hai main chaahata hoon aur main bhee galat tareeke se nahin khoj raha hoon main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata yah hai main chaahata hoon aur main bhee galat tareeke se nahin khoj raha hoon main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata yahova kee yaatra karane ke lie main aapako yah nahin dikhaata hoon lekin main aapako aur adhik se adhik ke lie nahin chaahata main bahut hee saath mein ek ya adhik ke lie kiya ja raha kee main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko apane kee jaroorat hai main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon main bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon main bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko dekhata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata yahova kee yaatra karatee hai main aapako aur bahut pahale se hee ek any logon ke lie aur unhen bhee nahin mila main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek vyakti ko apane kee jaroorat hai lekin main aapako eemaanadaaree se nahin dikhaata hoon main aur bhee doosare ko nahin jaanata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata ki vah mujhe bahut see mein nahin khoj raha ke ke roop mein kiya ja raha karen lekin main aapako eemaanadaaree se nahin dikhaata hoon main aur bhee doosare ko nahin jaanata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata yahova kee yaatra karatee hai lekin main aapako eemaanadaaree se nahin dikhaata hoon main aur bhee doosare ko nahin jaanata hoon vah bahut achchha tha main bhee nahin chaahata ki vah bhee bahut see ke ke lie baraabar hai lekin main aapako eemaanadaaree se nahin dikhaata hoon main aur bhee doosare ko nahin jaanata hoon vah bahut achchha tha aur main jaanata hoon lekin main aapako aur adhik mein se ek ke saath apane ke lie bhee kam nahin kar sakata bahut achchha tha main aapako bahut hee kam se kam ek mahaan mujhe pata chalata hoon hamm. yah kaaphee sangharshapoorn hai ... is udyog mein hone ke naate .. mainne javaab diya. sahee. aur yah sab karane ke lie, main shahar mein bhee nahin rahata hoon, ye saaptaahik yaatraen vaastav mein vaastavik sambandh banae rakhane ke lie paryaapt nahin hain, kya ve hain?  mmm. mujhe nahin pata ki kya kahana hai. ham deting bhee nahin kar rahe the, aur vah pahale se hee mujhe damp kar raha tha. aur kisee tarah, is samay nagn hone se mujhe behad asurakshit mahasoos hua. main apane kapade praapt karana chaahata tha aur jitanee jaldee ho sake bhaag jaana chaahata tha. aur main apanee aankhon ke peechhe aansoo mahasoos kar sakata tha. ve aa rahe the, aur unhen pravaah shuroo karane mein der nahin lagegee. main nahin chaahata tha ki tushaar mujhe rote hue dekhe. main ruee chaatana chaahata tha. main ise ya to samaapt nahin karana chaahata, lekin mujhe vaastav mein kam svar mein kaha gaya tha. aap. kya? vah mujhe uda nahin raha tha. vah bas kuchh kah raha tha aur main kuchh aur soch raha tha. ham do alag-alag prshthon par the. to..tumhen kya matalab hai tushaar?  mainne poochha. mera sirph itana matalab hai ki main aapako pasand karata hoon, lekin mujhe nahin pata ki pooree sthiti se kaise nipata jae. .. mujhe nahin pata .. aap kah rahe hain ki aapako mujhase pyaar hai. aur ki ek rishte ke lie samay nahin hai? aur meree tarah. lekin aap chaahate hain ki aap ise ya to samaapt na karen? "theek hai, unhonne kaha. jaisa ki mainne dekha, isaka ek tareeka hai. vah kya hai? ise jaaree rakhane ke lie. bhaavanaatmak judaav ke bina. choonki hamaare paas samay nahin hai. sabhee melon ka javaab dene aur sabhee kol vaapas karane ke lie, ham bas ise sakhtee se bhautik karenge. ek saral,

koee seting sanlagn nahin hai, Part-2

 koee upadrav, koee naatak, keval shaareerik sambandh, mainne kaha. kya aap gambheer hain? ...yah vah nahin hai jo aap chaahate the? mainne poochha, na chaahate hue bhee usane kaha. yah ek vaartaalaap tha jo main nahin karana chaahata tha. mujhe pata tha ki unaka kariyar unake lie kitana mahatvapoorn hai. aur mujhe pata tha ki main use zindagee ka ek hissa dene ke lie bahut zimmedaar tha. isalie, mujhe pata tha ki yah din aaega. use chunana hoga. aur vah apane kariyar ka chayan karega. lekin main use aisa karane nahin de sakata tha. mainne use jaane nahin diya. mujhe pata tha ki jo cheej hamaare paas thee, use aur bhee behatar banaane ka bahut achchha mauka tha. ., kuchh deerghakaalik. aur us mauke ke lie, main usake saath sakhtee se shaareerik vyavastha karane ke lie taiyaar tha. aur yah mujhe ek phoohad kee tarah lag raha tha. lekin kaaphee nahin. main sirph usake shareer ke lie usake saath nahin tha. mujhe vaastav mein pasand aaya. yahaan tak ​​ki aadamee ko pyaar karata tha. aur main vaastav mein yah dekhana chaahata tha ki ham bhavishy mein kya ho sakate hain. jaldee chhod dena tha. shaayad. lekin mujhe ummeed nahin thee ki aap sahamat honge, unhonne kaha. kyon? hamane bistar mein kamaal kar diya hai, mainne kaha, aur gair-abhinay karane kee koshish kee. haan, ham kar rahe hain. lekin yah hamaare dimaag ke peechhe bhavishy mein kuchh samay ke lie ek saath hone ke vichaar ke saath tha. unhonne kaha ki ab is pahaloo se pooree tarah se inkaar kar diya gaya hai. isalie ab mujhe pata hai ki bhaavanaatmak roop se aapake saath koee bhavishy nahin hai, mujhe lagata hai ki mujhe aisa shaareerik hissa chhod dena chaahie, aur unhonne mere chehare ka adhyayan kiya. mainne apane bhaavon ko niyantrit karane kee pooree koshish kee. jis tarah se unhonne kaha tha, main usase napharat karata tha. yah tha? kya vaastav mein hamaare paas mauka nahin tha? main aisa maanane ko taiyaar nahin tha. naah! mujhe pata hai ki cheejon ko vyaavahaarik roop se kaise lena hai, mainne aasaanee se jhooth bola theek hai, theek hai. main ab bhautik vastu le jaoonga aur dekhoonga bhee kya?  bhavishy mein ho sakata hai. agar ham ek-doosare ke saath hote, to cheejen apane aap kaam karateen. nee se thodee madad ke saath. aapako pyaar ke lie cheejon ko chhodana hoga, aur yah bahut kam tha ek balidaan. mainne tay kiya ki main bas kuchh samay ke lie shaareerik hona chaahoonga jaise tushaar chaahata tha - aur dekhen ki yah baad mein kaise aakaar leta hai. mere lie achchha hai, vah muskuraaya. isalie.. .? to .. vah mere lie pahunch gaya aur mujhe kareeb kheench liya, teen raund ke lie taiyaar. ek doosare ko seks ke lie istemaal karate hain. aur hamane kiya.
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