kya aap jaanate hain? hamen?


aur jo glaim is prakaar hai vah spasht roop se bahut aakarshak hai, unhonne javaab diya, glaim ... aapako yah sab umr mein mila, kya? solah? satrah. aur yah aakasmik tha. mainne aapako bataaya, mainne un tasveeron ko vishuddh roop se dilachaspee se shoot kiya tha. kabhee nahin socha tha ki ve is tarah kee charcha paida karenge. mujhe yaad hai ki mainne net par isake baare mein kuchh padha tha, mainne kabool kiya. aur tum isake paar kaise aae?  usane poochha, dekh khush ho gaya. unhonne kaha, mainne aapako najar andaaj kar diya, mainne unakee aankh se mulaakaat kee aur gambheerata se javaab diya. naah! main ek sachchee premika kee tarah kaam kar rahee thee. taib rakhate hue. prshthabhoomi kee kahaaniyon mein khudaee. chhipe hue kankaalon kee saamaany saamaan kee khoj,

maidaan ke niyam, Part-2

 kya aap jaanate hain? oh! abhee tak koee bhaagy? jaise-ab nahin. lekin main haar nahin maanoonga. main baad mein aapake baare mein baat karane ke lie kuchh khojoonga.  zaroor. hamen kuchh samay ladane kee koshish karanee chaahie. yah ek vaastavik sambandh kee tarah mahasoos hoga. abhee, yah sab bahut meetha hai. yah haneemoon ka daur hai. haalaanki jald hee khatm ho jaega. aur tab hamaaree bhaaree ladaee hogee. sabhee talavaar aur saindal. talavaar?  ve hanse. oh, tum hoga-main beech-bachaav band kar diya kyonki usaka phon bajane laga. usane ise anishchit roop se dekha. jaaree rakhen. ise uthao, mainne panga liya. namaste? usane phon par kaha. vah phon par baat karane mein vyast ho gaya aur mainne apane chaaron or dekha. ham us din pavee jheel par the. hamane baithak kee din-pratidin kee baat ko bhee gambheerata se liya tha aur socha tha ki shahar ka anveshan daans baar se ek achchha badalaav hoga. aur mujhe bhee achchha laga. mujhe vah jagah achchhee tarah se yaad nahin hai, kyonki mainne apana samay any cheejon mein talleen hokar bitaaya tha. arthaat, tushaar. lekin mujhe yaad hai achchha lag raha tha jab main vahaan tha. ya shaayad yah sirph tushaar tha. mujh par usaka vah prabhaav tha; mujhe hamesha achchha laga, jab main usake saath tha tab se ek maheena ho gaya tha jab se hamane deting shuroo kee thee. aur yah bahut aasaanee se chal raha tha. pahale teen din hamane saath bitae aur phir pandrah dinon tak bina kisee dekhe-samajhe. jisake baad unhonne mujhe dekhakar aakar mujhe chaunka diya tha. aur phir, yah doosara tiname tha jo usane kiya tha. aur main use isake lie pyaar karata tha. vah vaastav mein yah kaam karane kee koshish kar raha tha, khaasakar kyonki main bahut chintit tha ki yah nahin ho sakata hai. main vaastav mein is samay aapakee madad nahin kar sakata, mainne use phon par yah kahate suna. usane jor dekar kaha. mainne apanee bhauhen uthaeen, jisase usane apana sir hila diya. aur mere shareer ke nahin sabhy sthaanon par usakee ungaliyon ko nok. suno, main antim samay mein radd karane ke lie maaphee maangata hoon,

maidaan ke niyam, Part-2

 lekin mujh par bharosa rakho, mere paas koee doosara vikalp nahin tha. kuchh oopar aaya aur mujhe jaana pada, usane sakhtee se kaha, ek minat ke lie ruk gaya aur kaha, main samajh gaya. theek hai, aur lataka diya. haalaanki main chaahata tha, mainne yah nahin poochha ki yah kaun tha. vah to premika-eesh lag raha hoga. lekin tab meree jigyaasa mujhe behatar lagee aur mainne poochha, vah kaun tha? ek graahak. mujhe aaj use radd karana pada. yahaan aane ke lie? usane saraka diya. yah vaise bhee ek mahaan pariyojana nahin thee, lekin aapane usake saath ek sauda kiya tha. aap antim samay mein is tarah radd nahin kar sakate. main tumase milana chaahata tha, usane kaha, mujhe dekh raha hai. mujhe pata hai ki tumane kiya. aur main vaastav mein aapako isake lie pyaar karata hoon, lekin usane mujhe poora nahin hone diya. to mujhe aane ka inaam milana chaahie na? aapane kaha ki aap mujhe isake lie pyaar karate hain. to, kya aap mujhe bataenge ki aap ishaare kee kitanee saraahana karate hain? tushaar. haan bebee? vah mujhe dekhakar meethe se muskuraaya. main hansa aur chehare par thoda laal ho gaya, yah sab mujh par kaam nahin karega. tee-tee lagata hai ki yah pahale se hee hai. .. yah aap par kaaphee achchha kaam kar raha hai, vah muskuraaya. unhonne mujhe mere atyadhik blashing sindrom ke baare mein nirdayata se chidhaane ke lie liya tha. mainne ek kathor chehara banae rakhane kee koshish kee, vishay par rahen. aapako apane kariyar par dhyaan kendrit karana hoga. aap nahin kar sakate- haan, main kar sakata hoon. main jab chaahoon tumhen dekhane ke lie yahaan ud sakata hoon. kyonki main aapase pyaar karata hoon aur main ise gambheerata se le raha hoon aapako is kaam ko karane ke lie apana kaam karane kee jaroorat nahin hai. yadi ham ek-doosare se paryaapt pyaar karate hain, jo mujhe yakeen hai ki ham karate hain, to yah khud hee kaam karega. aap mujhe ek prayaas karane ke lie nahin chaahate hain?  nahin aisee baat nahin hai. main aapako prayaas karane ke lie pyaar karata hoon. lekin ... main bhee tumase pyaar karata hoon. apane kariyar kee keemat par nahin. main is vajah se aapako apane kariyar mein todaphod nahin karane doonga.  mainne beech mein jo kaha, use anadekha karate hue mainne samaapt kiya. oh ab chhodie bhee. yah sirph ek kaam hai. yah shaayad hee mere kairiyar ko todaphod karega to, aap phir aisa nahin karenge? main yah vaada nahin kar sakata. kya? mujhe us tarah mat dekho. main tumase pyaar karata hoon. main aapake saath vaqt bitaana chaahata hoon. unhonne kaha ki kuchh mahatvaheen kaamon ko chhod dena mere kariyar ko prabhaavit nahin karega. aur antim kshan mein radd karana, bina kisee poorv soochana ke, kya yah aapakee chhavi ko prabhaavit nahin karega? unhonne mujhase pahale das sekand ke lie bina shabd ke kaha, aap bahut chinta karate hain. jaise hee aaega ham ise le lenge. yah sabhee praathamikataon ke baare mein hai. aapako khushee honee chaahie ki mainne aapako soochee mein sheersh raink par rakha. main khush hoon. yah sirph hash hai. aap keematee samay barbaad kar rahe hain. hamen kuchh jameenee niyam sthaapit karane chaahie, kya aap jaanate hain? hamen? pasand? mainne poochha. jaise ham jab ham ek saath nahin hote hain, tab ham sabhee ko pareshaan karate hain aur shikaayat karate hain. ham ise phon kol mel par karenge. isalie, graund niyam 1-jab ham ek saath hote hain, ham vishesh roop se bhautik cheejon par dhyaan kendrit karate hain. vyakti mein koee sata nahin. behatar cheejen, ham tab karenge jab ham milenge. aisee cheejen jo ham phon ya intaranet par nahin kar sakate. .. main dekh sakata hoon ki yah kahaan ja raha hai ..? mainne ek muskaan chhipaee. tum karo? main sirph haath pakadane, ek-doosare ko gale lagaane, ek-doosare ko kareeb se dekhane, saath mein bhojan karane kee baat kar raha tha ... haan, haan. mujhe yakeen hai ki aapaka matalab tha. smaart, aap hamesha se rahe hain! vaise bhee, chutakule alag. batao- tumhen meree yojana kaisee lagee?  umm ... yah samajh mein aata hai. .. khaasataur par aapake us phon kol ke baad, jab aap itanee sakhtee se baat kar rahe the. yaar, kya yah garm tha! aah! yah tha? vaise bhee, dekhen? mainne tumase kaha tha. hamen bas saamaan ka prabandhan karane kee aavashyakata hai jaise main kahata hoon aur ham bhayaanak honge. mere paas stor mein adhik shaanadaar vichaar hain. sunana chaahate hain? aur mainne sun liya. aur unhonne nishchit roop se samajh banaee. aur kaaphee dilachasp bhee the. usane mera haath pakad liya aur apanee ungaliyaan meree hathelee ke andar tak ghused dee, kyonki usane mere kaan mein meethee nok jhonk kee. usane mujhe lahooluhaan kar diya, usane mujhe hansaaya aur usane mujhe aashankit kar diya. yah bahut hee romaantik tha. pavee jheel ek saarvajanik sthaan hai. hamen vahaan se nikalana pada. aur isee tarah.