maidaan ke niyam, Part-1

usane mujhe gale lagaaya


pavitr shit! mainne kaha ki mainne tushaar ko apane apaartament mein rahane diya. mujhe nahin pata tha ki vah aa raha hai. aur mujhe aashchary hua. khaasataur par tab jab ve itane achchhe the. vah sabase achchha aashchary tha jo mujhe kabhee bhee mil sakata tha. aur main apane vartamaan ko ujaagar karane ke lie intajaar nahin kar sakata tha. usane mujhe gale lagaaya aur ham chooma. bhagavaan! mainne use bahut yaad kiya tha. us din, usaka chehara us thoonth se dhanka nahin tha. lekin vah abhee bhee samaan roop se saans lene mein kaamayaab rahe. vatsala ko apana gala saaph karate sunate hee ham pooree tarah se chheenane vaale the. are vatsala, tushaar ne kaha jaise hee hamane aalingan ko toda. haay, usane kuchh hee der mein kaha aur meree taraph mudee, tushaar ko bata diya hai? ronit ke baare mein? nahin, mainne nahin. kya main aapase ek minat baat kar sakata hoon? akele mein? theek hai, pakka, mainne kaha aur tushaar, bas ek sekand ke lie muda? beshak. apana samay le lo, vah muskuraaya. mainne usake kamare mein vatsala ka peechha kiya, soch raha tha ki yah sab kya hai. ronit, koee shak nahin, lekin kya? kya usane usase milane ka phaisala kiya, aakhir? kuchh hua,

maidaan ke niyam, Part-1

 usane kaha, ek baar ham kamare ke andar the. umm ... kya tum use dekhane ja rahe ho? kya mere munh se nikala tha. yahee vah kshan tha jisakee main sabase jyaada paravaah karata tha. main ankit ke saath vatsala ko barbaad nahin hone de sakata tha. agar main isakee madad nahin kar sakata. nahin vah sookhakar hansee mainne raahat kee saans lee. to yah kya hai? mainne poochha. mujhe ronit ka ek mel mila. dekh. . mujhe khed hai ki main ise aaj nahin bana sakata. baaten saamane aaeen. phir kabhee? oh. to, yah achchha nahin hai? isase cheejen aasaan ho jaatee hain, aapako radd nahin karana padega, mainne kaha ki chhavee ... vah mujhe nahin dekhana chaahatee. aisa nahin lagata. vah "aaj ise nahin bana sakata hai" kyonki "cheejen ab aap. oopar aae aur unhonne kaha ki vah aapako" kuchh aur samay "dekhana chaahata hai. yah sab sirph ek bahaana hai. bas vinamr hone ke lie, vah udaas hokar bola. vatsala, main mujhe yakeen hai ki unhonne jo kaha usaka matalab tha. aur yahaan tak ​​ki agar vah nahin tha, to yah kaise phark padata hai? aap ise praapt nahin karate! koee bhee ise praapt nahin karata hai! vah mujhe nahin chaahata hai. main dekh sakata tha ki vah aahat thee. aur dekh sakata tha ki vah apamaanit mahasoos kar rahee hai, lekin mainne aisa kyon nahin dekha. to kya hua agar koee aadamee use dekhana nahin chaahata hai. yah har samay hai. kuchh log aap mein hain, kuchh log nahin hain. yah is tarah se hai. is. aapako bas isase nipatana hai. mujhe nahin pata ki kya kahana hai, mainne eemaanadaaree se kaha. apane premee ke paas jao. vah intajaar kar raha hai. mujhe pata hai ki tumhaare paas mere lie ab koee samay nahin hai. oh , aao. aap jaanate hain ki yah aisa nahin hai. haan, vah mera premee hai aur main usase pyaar karata hoon aur main usake saath rahana chaahata hoon ... khaasakar kyonki ham itane kam samay ke lie ek saath hain. lekin isaka matalab nishchit roop se nahin hai. mujhe aapakee paravaah hai ki mujhe koee khed hai. mera matalab aapako chot pahunchaana nahin tha. yah sirph itana hai, yo don  yah sab samajh mein nahin aata. aap nahin jaanate ki yah kitana mahatvapoorn hai mere lie hai, usane kaha aur mujhe usakee badee bhooree bachchee jaisee aankhon se dekha. vah sirph ek bachcha tha. haan, mujhe samajh nahin aa raha hai. kal raat, hamane phaisala kiya ki aap nahin jaenge. tumane kaha tha ki tum nahin jaoge. ankit ko chhod do- main ankit ko nahin chhodoonga! main use kabhee nahin chhodoonga! main ab bhee usake saath khada hoon.  to, aap ankit ko nahin chhodenge aur aap abhee bhee ronit ko jaane nahin denge? aisa nahin hota hai. tum un donon ko ek saath nahin kar sakate, main chillaaya. main ab tak niraash tha lekin ronit- ham pahale hee is par charcha kar chuke hain, vatsala. ronit ka adhyaay band hone do. usane radd kar diya,

maidaan ke niyam, Part-1

 aur aap vaise bhee nahin ja rahe the. to badee baat kya hai? tumhen nahin pata ki ise kaise khaarij karana hai, vah mushkil se phusaphusaaya main nahin? aapako lagata hai ki grah par ek bhee vyakti hai jise jeevan mein ek baar bhee khaarij nahin kiya gaya hai? ek hee vyakti dvaara nahin. baar baar. khaasataur par usee vyakti dvaara. kyonki vah ek vyakti aapako pasand nahin karata hai. usane kabhee nahin kiya, usane kabhee nahin kiya. isalie yah spasht hai ki vah har baar aapako asveekaar kar dega, mainne tark diya. lekin yah dard deta hai. ki tum kabhee nahin beshak yah dard hota hai! yah chot karane vaala hai! yahee kaaran hai ki aap isake baare mein sab kuchh bhool jaane kee aavashyakata hai. aur usake baare mein sab bhool jao. batesh ne phir shuruaat kee. nahin, magar nahin! aakhiree baar, vatsala-move on. yah ankit ke lie uchit nahin hai, main chillaaya, ant mein apana shaant khona. agar tum aise hee chalate rahe, to tum use khote ja rahe ho. aur kis lie? yah saraasar moorkhata hai. main nahin jaanata ki aapake saath kya galat hai. vah ek pal ke lie chup rahee. mujhe laga ki vah peshaab kar rahee hai. mainne us par kabhee chillaaya nahin hai. narak, mainne kabhee kisee par chillaaya nahin hai. lekin usase nipatana itana mushkil ho raha tha, mere paas koee doosara vikalp nahin tha. jab vah mudee, to usake chehare par ek ajeeb see nazar thee jo padh nahin sakatee thee. mainne tumase kaha tha - vah ek abhivyakti ko doharaata nahin hai. isalie usaka chehara kabhee-kabhee padhana vaakee mushkil ho jaata hai. jao usane kaha. kya? tushaar ke paas jao. mujhe lagane laga ki mera matalab apamaan se nahin hai, dekhie, vatsala ne maaphee maangee. main naaraaj nahin hoon. main khush hoon. achchha laga. koee mujh par chillaata nahin. main hansa aur apana sir hilaaya, ek pal ke lie, aapane mujhe dara diya. aur nishchit roop se koee bhee aap par chillaata nahin hai. aap logon ko daraate hain. jab tak ve aapake kareeb nahin honge, ve aap par chillaenge nahin. mujhe yah pasand hai ki aap mujhe us par chillaane ke lie paryaapt samajhen. o, main muskuraaya. tumhen pata hai, kuchh raat pahale, mujhe aapake aur mere baare mein yah sapana aaya tha. tumhen pata hai, ek samalaingik kalpana ... kya? aur main vaastav mein is samay aap sabhee ko apane kareeb laana chaahata hoon, lekin agale kamare mein apane premee ke saath, yah ajeeb hoga, usane ek chehara banaaya. umm ... mujhe lagata hai ki mujhe jaana chaahie. are ruko. yah ajeeb nahin ho sakata hai. agar ham use hamaare saath judane ke lie aamantrit kar sakate the. .. mainne apanee edee ko chaaloo kiya aur chala gaya. "aap vaastav mein yah pasand karate hain, hai na?  mainne tushaar se poochha. mujhe vaastav mein kya pasand hai? yah aapaka jeevan hai. kariyar, photograaphee. eses ke lie utsaah tha.

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