lambee dooree bekaar hai, Part-1

usane poochha


ham yah kaise karane ja rahe hain? mainne tushaar se phon par poochha. yah kitana niraashaajanak tha. vah poore ek haphte tak shahar mein nahin tha aur main use bahut yaad kar raha tha. aur aisa tab tha jab hamane un teen dinon ko svarg mein ek saath bitaaya tha. mainne socha tha ki ve ek pakhavaade tak chalane ke lie paryaapt honge, jab vah apane kaam ke baad vaapas aa jaega. lekin yah ek saptaah bhee nahin chala. agar saat dinon mein yah itana bura tha, to main yah nahin sochana chaahata tha ki chaudahaven din meree haalat kya hogee. jeevan itana anuchit hai. kya karen? usane poochha. tushaar, aa jao! agar ham ise kaam karane kee koshish bhee nahin karenge to yah kaise kaam karega?  ham koshish karane kee jaroorat nahin hai!

lambee dooree bekaar hai, Part-1

 cheejen pahale kee tarah chalengee. kuchh bhee nahin badala. .. tumhaara kya matalab hai kuchh bhee nahin badala hai?  mainne poochha. ..paas hai? main .. main nahin jaanata ki kya kahana hai. unhonne kaha ki vah mujhase pyaar karate hain. aur mainne kaha ki main bhee usase pyaar karata tha. aur hamane apane ateet aur saamaan ke baare mein baaten saajha keen jo hamane kabhee kisee aur ko nahin bataee theen. aur-mujhe aakhirakaar chaahie aapako bata den ki ab ham teen din ek saath bitaate the, jyaadaatar bistar par hee bitae jaate the. lekin unhen pyaar karane mein kharch nahin kiya gaya. ham sirph ek doosare se baat kar rahe the. aur yah adbhut tha! ham pyaar mein the! aur ab, vah kah raha tha ki kuchh bhee nahin badala tha! sab kuchh ek jaisa kaise ho sakata hai? ham pahale kee tarah kaise aage badh sakate hain? kya ab bhee aisa hee hoga? jab bhee vah mumbee mein hota to kya vah mujhe bulaata aur ham milate aur seks karate? jab vah yahaan nahin tha tab bhee kya hamaara koee sampark nahin hoga? kya yah abhee bhee seks ke baare mein tha? kya vah usake dimaag se baahar hai? "chhavee! aap itanee chinta kyon kar rahe hain? hamaare paas ab bhee vahee hoga jo hamaare paas tha. isake alaava pyaar. kaise koee behatar ho sakata hai? mujhe nahin lagata ki ham yahaan ek hee prshth par hain .. mainne kaha, aur aashchary usane kam se kam chinta kyon nahin kee. to mujhe batao ki tum soch rahe ho. phir jor se socho. chalo is par ek saath kaam karate hain, unhonne kaha ki mainne abhee-abhee kiya hai. us din, ham sirph the. aap ek doosare ka upayog karana jaanate hain. seks ke lie, sahee hai? theek hai, vah hairaan lag raha tha. kya? kya itana mazedaar hai? kya tum mujh par hans rahe ho? jis tarah se tum ise ka upayog kar doosare ko seks ke lie istemaal kar rahe ho. mujhe. main sun raha hoon. isalie, ham bistar par sirph saathee the aur koee taar juda hua nahin tha. lekin ab ham adhik hain. ab aap kah chuke hain ki aap mujhase pyaar karate hain,

lambee dooree bekaar hai, Part-1

 main sochakar muskuraaya. vah mujhase pyaar karate the. yah abhee bhee puraana nahin ho raha tha. . vichaar abhee bhee mere din banaane ke lie paryaapt tha. main apanee raaton ke baare mein ek hee baat nahin kah sakata tha, haalaanki, ve nahin bane the. ve atyaachaar kar rahe the. haan. aur kaha ki mujhe vaapas pyaar karo. isalie ham tumhaare saath pyaar mein hain. se pratyek any. isalie? kya yah achchhee baat nahin hai? haan yahee hai. lekin yah sab kuchh jatil bhee karata hai. ham ek hee shahar mein nahin rahate hain aur - main kisee bhee shahar mein nahin rahata hoon. mainne use najarandaaj kar diya. agar ham bhee nahin milate hain to hamen kaise rishta nibhaana chaahie? saptaah mein ek baar milana paryaapt hai? "oh, to aap adhik milana chaahate hain? yah meetha hai!" tushaar!  main chillaaya. theek hai theek hai. main ab gambheer aur gambheer ho jaoonga. lekin mujhe lagata hai ki bada mudda kya nahin hai! mujhe pata hai ki ham ek hee shahar mein nahin rahate hain. endee jaanata hai ki ham is tarah hamesha ke lie nahin rakh sakate. lekin yah sirph asthaayee hai. main hamesha ke lie khaanaabadosh nahin hone ja raha hoon! mera matalab yah nahin hai. main us baare mein abhee tak nahin soch raha tha. nahin ki lambe samay tak. bas itana ... aur milana achchha rahega. mujhe pata hai. aur main ek vaastavik sambandh banaana chaahata hoon. lekin, ham isake baare mein abhee tak kuchh nahin kar sakate, kya ham kar sakate hain? to, ham ise sakaaraatmak tareeke se dekhen. tushaar ne kaha ki ab hamaare paas adbhut lavameking aur pyaar hoga. lekin yah sab jatil ho raha hai. ab, isamen pyaar ke saath .. aap bahut chinta karate hain. ham utana hee milenge, jitana ham pahale istemaal karate the. aur ab mel aur kol aur tekst bhee honge. aur phool aur khajoor aur momabattee-raat ka bhojan. aur lambee draiv aur der raat chait aur ... aapako yah vichaar milata hai? main muskuraaya, haan, main karata hoon. aur ab jab aap ise is tarah se lagaate hain to aapako lagata hai ki aap dekh rahe hain? main buddhivaan hoon! aur agar aap mujhe bahut yaad karate hain to ham hamesha phon seks kee koshish kar sakate hain. tum chaaho! main aisa kabhee nahin karoonga- usane mujhe kaat diya, kyon? yah bahut achchha hai, mainne suna hai. saaree gandee baat aur- bilkul. kya main kisee aise vyakti kee tarah dikhata hoon jo gandee baaten karega? oh, yah koee mudda nahin hai. main baat karoonga. aur aap antatah pakad lenge ... aisa nahin hoga. main aapako prataadit karana chaahoonga, isake bajaay mainne chheda. "kya yah sirph mujh par atyaachaar hoga. mujhe batao ki tum mujhe jitana yaad karoge utana mujhe yaad nahin rahega. mujhe batao ki tum apane aap ko sone ke lie nahin rooge, har raat main door hoon!" aap bahut bhram mein hain. aur aap mujhe kaise pratikriya dena chaahate hain? kya main tumhen sahaanubhooti khilaoon? tum ab meree premika ho. pooree duniya mein ek vyakti jo mere kahane ke saath khelane vaala hai, vah vyakti jo mujhe apane baare mein achchha mahasoos karaane vaala hai, to kya usase bahut adhik sahaanubhooti kee ummeed hai?  usane poochha. aur vah itana pyaara lag raha tha ki main use ek bada gale lagaana chaahata tha. lekin phir mujhe yaad aaya-vah usee shahar mein nahin tha. mal. theek hai ruk jao. koee nakaaraatmak vichaar nahin. mainne ek muskaan daalee. aww.of beshak nahin! agar ham phon par nahin hote to main vyaakul ho jaata. mera matalab hai, main aapakee seksee baatacheet ke bina raat mein kaise gujaroonga? vaastav mein, aapako gandee baat karane kee bhee aavashyakata nahin hai. bas aapakee aavaaj hee kaaphee hogee. jis tarah se aap aur aapakee aavaaz kee banaavat bolane ke lie paryaapt hogee. mujhe draiv karo .. ka sheersh. khushee kee baat hai. usane kuchh nahin kaha. tushaar? aap vahaan hain? tum achaanak chup kyon ho? mainne poochha. main soch raha tha ... bhagavaan ne mujhe itana paripoorn kyon banaaya? tum ladakiyaan mere pyaar mein itanee paagal ho jaatee ho .. kitana sach! yah ek anuchit duniya hai, hai na?  theek theek. umm ne phon par karane ke poore vichaar ke baare mein utsaahit kiya, chalo ab ek poorvaabhyaas karate hain! main shuroo karoonga, unhonne kaha. usakee aavaaj achaanak se badal gaee, usane poochha, to, tumane abhee kya pahana hai? tushaar .... ..main soch raha tha ... jab se tum ho nahin, kuchh mat kaho. mujhe andaaja lagaane do. chhote kaale dil ke saath yah sab khatm? aisa nahin hoga. main aapako prataadit karana chaahoonga, isake bajaay mainne chheda. "kya yah sirph mujh par atyaachaar hoga. mujhe batao ki tum mujhe jitana yaad karoge utana mujhe yaad nahin rahega. mujhe batao ki tum apane aap ko sone ke lie nahin rooge, har raat main door hoon!" aap bahut bhram mein hain. aur aap mujhe kaise pratikriya dena chaahate hain? kya main tumhen sahaanubhooti khilaoon? tum ab meree premika ho. pooree duniya mein ek vyakti jo mere kahane ke saath khelane vaala hai, vah vyakti jo mujhe apane baare mein achchha mahasoos karaane vaala hai, to kya usase bahut adhik sahaanubhooti kee ummeed hai?  usane poochha. aur vah itana pyaara lag raha tha ki main use ek bada gale lagaana chaahata tha. lekin phir mujhe yaad aaya-vah usee shahar mein nahin tha. mal. theek hai ruk jao. koee nakaaraatmak vichaar nahin. mainne ek muskaan daalee. aww.of beshak nahin! agar ham phon par nahin hote to main vyaakul ho jaata. mera matalab hai, main aapakee seksee baatacheet ke bina raat mein kaise gujaroonga? vaastav mein, aapako gandee baat karane kee bhee aavashyakata nahin hai. bas aapakee aavaaj hee kaaphee hogee. jis tarah se aap aur aapakee aavaaz kee banaavat bolane ke lie paryaapt hogee.
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