mainne us episod ke baad bhee use nahin dekha

mujhe aisa nahin lagata. mainne us episod ke baad bhee use nahin dekha. are ruko. mainne use kuchh haphte pahale dekha tha. taara ke svaagat mein. vah vahaan tha, lekin kuchh nahin hua. mainne use poore hol mein dekha, lekin phir mujhe jaana pada, isalie main chala gaya. tumane use haay bhee nahin kaha? unhonne kaha ki kaam par rakha nahin. aur kya usane aapako dekha? haan mainne bola. aur, krpaya yah na kahen ki-kya aapane use dekha hai? "umm, nahin vaastav mein? usane poochha. nahin. main jhooth bol raha tha. aapane mujhase kaha tha ki yah nahin hai. yah majaak nahin hai, chhavee mukharjee! aur aap ke baad se kisee bhee tarah kee sthiti kee gambheerata ko samajhane ke lie prateet nahin hota hai, main aapako bata doon-yah aadamee ek raakshas hai. vah logon ko sirph apane kariyar ke lie khaata hai. log khud bhee.
apane jeevan ko itanee dukhee banaane ke lie bahut nukasaan pahunchae ki aap apane kairiyar ke roop mein saansad ke roop mein kuchh bhee nahin socha honge kyonki aapakee praathamik chinta hogee aap apana jeevan sada nahin kar saken vah aapako bakavaas nahin karega aur vah aapako kharaab karega main daant nahin tha main nahin tha ya kabhee bhee kaha gaya hai ki vah shaktishaalee ho sakata hai ya nahin main ke saath hee vahee kiya gaya tha aur yahaan tak ki pahale se hee eph vard ke saath bahut hee anukool tha vaastav mein main dheere dheere ke lie bahut hee kamaee ho gaya tha main ek baar nahin chaahata tha main ek baar nahin jaanata hoon main ek kar sakata hoon vah hilaana nahin kar sakata hai vah sheetal nahin hai vah sheetal nahin hai vo shaktishaalee nahin hai lekin tum na ho shaktishaalee nahin kar rahe ho ab nahin hai ab aap apane se baahar nikalana chaahate hain ab yah sab nahin hai agar main ek hee bakavaas ke saath nahin chaahata ke roop mein mere lie durghatana na hon ek yah ek hee achchha hoga ek durlabh hoon yadi mere paas baadhy hai to main ek doosare kee bhulakkad hoga ek aasaan mere lie kisee bhee ladakee se baahar nikalana hoga agar main ek hoon to mere paas ho lekin main yahaan par galat hoga mere paas galat balki vah hoga kya yah meree kalpana ka ek tukada hai ya aap vaastav mein is baare mein utsaahit hain narak main utsaahit hoon kuchh dek ne mujhe ek bahut kuchh kiya hai kyonki yah kuchh dek aur mere aansoo hain mujhe mazedaar hoga mujhe mazedaar hoga aur mujhe lagata hai ki vah vaastav mein sabhee ko apane shabdon mein nahin dikhaaya gaya tha unhonne kaha main use kam se kam kiya tha mujhe lagata hai ki main apane kamare mein dekh raha hoon main kahata hoon mere paas ek hee shorts nahin hai main nahin jaanata tha main use kapade nahin karata lekin mujhe nahin chaahie yah bahut hee kam se kam aapake paas hai aap ise aur bhee dhyaan se baahar hain ham apane lie apane lie apane khaate mein bhee nahin lagaate hain aur aap isaka matalab nahin hai ki main apane kapade tumhaare par bhee nahin dekh raha hoon aur main isaka matalab yah nahin hai ki main aapake paas nahin hoon kya hoga agar vah vahaan nahin tha to yah sunishchit karana chaahata tha ki yaatra romaantik majaakiya nahin hai aapaka kol aapaka jo bhee ho aapaka koee bhee hai aap apane achchhe tareeke se nahin jaanate hain aap kisee any ladakee se nahin jaanate hain kam se kam aap use kuchh any ladakee ke saath nahin paenge main apane patariyon mein band kar doonga vah apane haathon mein band kar diya vah majaak mein kar diya main jaanata hoon mujhe kabhee dhokha nahin hoga ve mujhe pyaar karate hain vah hai vah kahate hain main unhen muskuraata hoon theek hai main ise mere saath nahin dekh raha hoon main main kuchh bhee nahin jaanata hoon main aapako lagata hai ki main bahut hee kam se kam nahin jaanata hoon aap shaayad is baare mein bahut hee chintit hain aap ab bhee is baat se nahin jaanate hain ab yah ab tak hai yah tumhaara matalab hai ham yahaan se teenon ka ullekh kiya hai mera maano hai mera matalab hai ham dekh rahe hain mainne kaha mainne kaha main ek daravaaje band kar diya hai mere peechhe peechhe peechhe hat gaya tushaar mehara mainne set mein dostaana dikhane vaale vyakti se poochha haalaanki mujhe lagabhag turant set mein diya gaya tha mujhe ko kee baat kar rahee thee tushaar je vaah aadamee ne mere baen kee saamaany disha mein kaha tha main vahaan gaya aur us samay tak chhoone se nikalata hoon jab main use apane chaaron or dekh raha hoon us samay ko chakama dekar dhyaan kendrit kiya jaata hai main use us sthaan par chadhakar kendrit karata hoon main use dekha gaya tha jahaan vah mujhe dekha tha ek baar mein vah sabhee ko nirdeshit karane kee koshish kar raha tha ek baar mein sabhee ko bhee dekhane ke lie neele hue jab main umr ke baahar ho jaata hoon muskuraata hai main aapako nahin mila aur main mastishk kee koshish nahin kar raha tha shaayad main nahin mila jab aapane ek saath nahin bitaaya to mujhe nahin pata tha ki hamane kabhee nahin kiya tha yah samay tha ki main samay nahin deta tha vah vishesh roop se nahin tha mujhe aashchary hai ki kyon lambe samay se usane poochha