pleez tushaar ..


pleez tushaar .. ’kya? mujhase baat karo ... mainne tumase kaha tha - mujhe kaam karana hai. isaka kya hissa samajh mein nahin aata hai?  vah achaanak chillaaya. mujhe nahin pata tha ki kaise pratikriya doon. mujhe ummeed thee ki vah mujh par gussa hoga aur mujhe pata tha ki yah uchit hai. lekin main gusse ka saamana karane ke lie taiyaar nahin tha. mainne use kabhee gusse mein nahin dekha tha. mujhe nahin pata tha ki vah mujh par chillaega. vah ek poorn ajanabee kee tarah kaam kar raha tha. main chup raha, kuchh aansuon ne mere gaal ko cheer diya, vah thodee der ke lie bhee chup raha, isase pahale ki main use sunata aur kam aavaaz mein kahata,  chhavee? bebee, main tumhen vaapas bula loonga. me vaada karata hu. jitanee jaldee ho sake, theek hai? hamm .1 ne kaha. tum ab, rona band karo. khush ho jao. mere lie muskarao. lekin .. tum mujh par paagal ho haan, main hoon. main tum par bahut paagal hoon. aur aap isake lie bhugataan karane ja rahe hain, unhonne dusht tushaar hush se kaha. mainne un tareekon ke baare mein socha hai jinake dvaara main aapako bhugataan karoonga. jab main agala phon karoonga, to main aage ke vikalp rakhoonga. main aapako kam se kam dardanaak ko chunane ka mauka doonga. vikalpon mein ek cheej samaan hai, haalaanki, in sabhee mein aapako apane kapadon se chhutakaara paane kee aavashyakata hotee hai. tushaar .. krpaya gambheer rahen.  theek hai, usane dheere se kaha. aur mainne usake svar mein achaanak badalaav ko dekha. mujhe maaph kar do. ..main hoon vaaqee. mujhe nahin pata ... mainne koshish kee, lekin main sirph usake baad aapaka saamana nahin kar saka. .us raat ko aaliya ke saath kya hua .. yah dekhana mere lie kathin tha. mujhe pata nahin kyon. . mainne kaha, is tathy ko chhipaane kee koshish kar raha hoon ki main spasht roop se usake saath pyaar mein tha. mujhamen hamm .. mujhe aapako is poore saptaah is tarah anadekha nahin karana chaahie,. unhonne kaha ki aapako us raat kee tarah bhaagana nahin chaahie tha. kya aapake paas koee vichaar hai ki main aapake baare mein kitana chintit tha? yah jaanakar achchha laga, main muskura diya. sabhee asurakshaon ke baad main poore haphte ladakhadaaya tha, yah jaanakar achchha laga ki usane dekhabhaal kee. chhhavi. . krpaya mujhe phir kabhee aisa na karen. .. main nahin karoonga. vaada. mujhe kshama karen ..

band adhyaay, Part-2

 umm ... aapako maaph kar diya jaega, ek baar isake lie bhugataan jaroor karen. main intajaar nahin kar sakata! aur mujhe lambe samay tak intajaar nahin karana pada. usane mujhe us narak ke lie bhugataan kiya jo mainne use poore saptaah mein kiya tha aur mainne khushee se bhugataan kiya. vaastav mein, unake sabhee vikalp itane dilachasp the, ki mujhe kisee ek ka chayan karane kee bhee aavashyakata nahin thee. mainne yah sab kiya. theek hai. main kisase majaak kar raha hoon? sach kaha jae-usane mujhe kisee cheej ke lie paise nahin die. mainne use is tarah ke moorkhataapoorn khelon mein samay barbaad karane ke lie bahut yaad kiya tha jab ham aakhirakaar ek saath the. aur jaahir hai, vah mujhase bhee chook gaya tha. itanee aashcharyajanak-koee bhee cheej jo hamane us raat kee thee usamen mujhe apane kapadon se chhutakaara nahin mila. hamane abhee baat kee hai. jab ham us par the tab unhonne mujhe pakad liya, aur unakee baahon mein rahana achchha laga. mujhe laga ki jaise kshan bhar ke lie thand ho gaee. yah ekadam sahee tha. unake kolon kee lakadee kee gandh, mere kandhe par unake thoonth kee thodee khuradaree banaavat-jahaan unhonne apanee thuddee ko aaraam diya tha, jabaki unhonne mujhe peechhe se pakad rakha tha jaise hee ham baat kar rahe the- unakee aavaaj kee bairiton ke roop mein unhonne mere kaan mein phusaphusaate hue kaha, soit, abhee tak mere paas, meree kamar ke chaaron or usakee baahon ko pakad kar rakha hai. .. yah ekadam sahee tha. main behatar seting ke lie nahin kah sakata tha. mujhe aashchary hua ki aakhirakaar use ehasaas hoga ki vah bhee mujhase pyaar karatee hai. us samay tak unakee agyaanata ghaneebhoot star tak pahunch rahee thee. vah kaise nahin jaan sakata tha? unhonne kaha, aap jaanate hain, aapako vaastav mein is tarah poore saptaah ko barbaad karane kee zaroorat nahin thee ... ham kuchh samay ek saath bita sakate the. yah majedaar hota. mujhe pata hai ... lekin main sirph. .. main us chhavi ko apane sir se nahin utaar saka, mainne eemaanadaaree se kaha. aur aapako jalan ho rahee thee? mujhe nahin hona chaahie? "ham ek khule rishte mein hain .. unhonne kaha. hamm..mainne yah nahin kaha ki mere dimaag mein kya tha. haan, ham ek khule rishte mein hain. isalie main nahin hoon. tumhaare saath pyaar mein padane kee anumati dee hai! jab main tumhen chhoota hoon to mujhe ek ladakee ko laat maarane kee anumati nahin hai? mujhe thoda marane kee ijaajat nahin hai jab main ek ladakee ko dekhata hoon jo aapake saamane sahee hai? tushaar kee aavaaj mere vichaaron mein toot gaee.  haan?  mujhe achchha laga ki aap eershya kar rahe the. yahee kaaran hai ki aap pyaar karate hain, manohar. main muskuraaya. jald hee, vah darjan bhar door ho gaya aur main use theek se dekhane ke lie bistar par baith gaya. ham nahin the. ek pakhavaade se milana, kalpana karana. main dooree ko kaise sambhaal paoonga? main kaise saans lene vaala tha? bas use theek se dekh raha tha, itane kareeb, adbhut tha. utsarjit hone vaalee neeras roshanee usake chehare par gir gaee. , ise rekhaankit karate hue. main apanee ungaliyon ko usake chehare par chalaana chaahata tha, lekin mujhe dar tha ki yah use jaga dega. aur phir yah ajeeb hoga. mujhe vaastav mein kabhee bhee use theek se ghoorane ka mauka nahin mila tha. , lekin main apanee smrti mein usake chehare kee har visheshata ko khodana chaahata tha aur ise hamesha ke lie apane sir mein sahejana chaahata tha. fon madad karate hain. mainne dheere-dheere ise sailent mod mein badal diya aur vartamaan ka laabh uthaane ke lie phon ko door rakhane se pahale bhavishy ke lie tushaar kee kuchh tasveeren klik keen. main use dekhane ke lie paryaapt nahin mila. aur yah ek bahut achchha avasar tha, ek tha jo mujhe yaad nahin tha. ek vyakti ko ghoor raha hai jab vah jaag raha hai thodee der ke baad sharminda ho jao, lekin agar aadamee so raha hai! aap usako ghoor sakate hain jo aap chaahate hain aur vah yah bhee nahin jaanata hoga ki aap usake saath pyaar mein kitane moorkh hain. lagabhag do ghante baad, mainne apanee palaken khulee rakhane ke saath sangharsh kiya. ek pishaach hone ke naate yah ek achchha vichaar tha, agar keval unakee kshamata ke lie pooree raat rahane ke lie. mera shareer thaka hua tha aur neend ke lie ro raha tha, mera dimaag sookha aur thaka hua tha, bas aaraam karane ke lie bheekh maang raha tha, lekin mera dil. .. are nahin! yah abhee bhee tushaar ke lie paryaapt nahin tha. main pooree raat use ghoorata raha. bhagavaan jaanate the ki yah rishta kab tak chalega. main chaahata hoon ki yah hamesha ke lie ho. .. lekin, yah mere haath mein nahin tha. mainne jab bhee mauka diya, mainne isaka bharapoor phaayada uthaane kee kasam khaee. mere phon ke palak jhapakate hee main vichalit ho gaya. vatsala ka ek paath tha. vatsala: yah phir se ek shaanadaar hai! kyonki main ankit se pyaar karata hoon. i lovai lovai lovai himl chhhavi: aapake lie achchha hai! vatsala: use ronit ke baare mein abhee tak nahin bataaya chhavee: aaraam se. paryaapt samay lo. jaldee kya hai? vatsala: vaastav mein main chhavee se pahale ullekh karana bhool gaya: kya? vatsala: mujhe phir se ronit se milana hai. ek lambe tiname ke lie. akela. chhavee: kya ?? vatsala: haan, isake baare mein ... emateevee mein yah slot hai vah mujhase baat karana chaahata tha chhavee: oh. kaam se sambandhit! oh. vatsala: haan ... main ghabara gaya .. chhavee: mujhe pata hai. vatsala: kya main ek bura insaan hoon? chhavee: nahin! kya aap mere saath majaak kar rahe hain?! tum mahaan ho. main tumase pyaar karata hoon!!! vatsala: hehe! mujhe lagata hai ki main ankit ko isake baare mein bataoonga kal main ankit se pahale ankit se milane se pahale ronit se nahin mil sakata: achchha vichaar hai! chinta mat karo, vah samajh jaega vatsala: hammam ... vaise bhee, yah aap logon ke saath kaise chal raha hai? vatsala: hammam .. chhavee: bahut badhiya! vatsala: kya main pareshaan hoon?

band adhyaay, Part-2

 chhhavi: nahin, vah so raha hai. vatsala: mujhe mat bataana ki tum use sote hue dekh rahe ho! chhavee: agar main hota to kya hota? vatsala: yah mujhe pooree tarah se rengana hoga! chhavee: aap seedhe saade ajeeb hain. vatsala: mujhe pata hai. chhavee: haaha! vatsala: chal, main abhee so jaata hoon. kal chhavee kee shooting karen: oh, haan! theek hai jao! vatsala: raat! tushaar ko jagao aur kuchh garm ganda seks karo. yah use sote hue ghoorane se behatar hai, mujh par bharosa karo! chhavee: haan, haan! vatsala: vaastav mein aap keematee samay barbaad kar rahe hain. chhavee: aapako lagata hai? vatsala: haan! vah kal chala jaega mujhe lagata hai ki main use jagaoonga, aakhir! chhavee: hamm vatsala: chatur! chhavee: phir milenge! sirph rikord ke lie-mainne us raat use nahin jagaaya. vah bahut pyaara lag raha tha. garm aur bhaaree mek shuroo hone ke baad aap vaastav mein apane aadamee ke chehare ko nahin dekh sakate.