ankit aur pattharabaajee


Mainne ek baar phir se bharane ke lie baaratendar ka prastaav rakha. he, aaj ke khoonkhaar din ke baad, mujhe peene kee zaroorat thee. yadi us din pahale jo hua tha, vah paryaapt nahin tha, apane ghar vaapas jaane par, mujhe us pharm se phon aaya jise mujhe agale saptaah shoot karana tha. unhonne kaha ki mujhe ab set par jaroorat nahin hogee. yah sirph ek vinamr tareeka tha jo unhonne mujhe charcha ke lie chuna. mujhe isakee ummeed thee, lekin itanee jaldee nahin. mujhe pata tha ki vallee apamaan ka sahaara nahin lega. eeshvar ko pata tha ki kya paalan karana hai.

ankit aur pattharabaajee


 yah vaise bhee nahin tha jaise mere paas kaee prastaav the. vallee jaise shakhs ka peshaab karana itana achchha aaidiya nahin tha, mujhe ahasaas ho gaya tha. mere paas vatsala dvaara ek not khojane ke lie ghar tha ki vah ankit ke saath raat bitaegee. jo mere lie koee matalab nahin tha. kya ankit ladakon ke hostal mein nahin rahata tha? khair, mera koee kaam nahin. mainne apanee edee ko mod liya tha aur baar ke lie apana raasta bana liya tha. main raat bitaane ke mood mein nahin tha, apane apaartament mein akela band tha. khaasakar jab se mera sharaab ka stok is samay na ke baraabar tha. vaa stav mein, yah sabhee kshanon mein astitvaheen tha, kyonki main anivaary roop se ek niyamit peene vaala nahin hoon. lekin kuchh baaten bas sloshaid hone ke lie kol karen. jaise jab mera yaun utpeedan hota hai. ya maanasik roop se kharaab kar diya. isalie is baar sharaab peena jaayaj tha. hauaayan shek ne mujhe baahar bulaaya. aapako kharaab mood se baahar nikaalane ke lie sharaab aur ghamand se behatar kuchh bhee nahin hai. isalie mainne khud ko khush karane ke lie achchhee tarah se kapade pahanane ka ek sachet prayaas kiya tha. mainne khud ko jaanchane ke lie neeche dekha. main yah vaastav mein aashcharyajanak gaharee laal poshaak pahan raha tha jo mujhe dee end jee se milee thee, aur isane mujhe ek bhaagy laagat dee thee, jaahir hai. lekin yah isake laayak tha. jis tarah se isane mere phigar ko kompleement kiya, main aapako bataata hoon! main vaastav mein us raat bahut garm lag rahee thee, agar main aisa kahoon to! chhhavi!  suna hai kisee ne mera naam pukaara. oh? oh. haay, kaushalya, mainne kaha. kaushal ek ladaka tha jise mainne pichhale saal kuchh maheenon ke lie det kiya tha, isase pahale ki yah spasht roop se spasht ho gaya tha ki ham donon vaastav mein ek doosare mein nahin the. isalie ham toot gae the. bura kisar bhee. lambe samay, eh?  vah muskaraaya.

ankit aur pattharabaajee


 vah vaastav mein mujhe dekhakar prasann hua. golamaal ke baad se, mainne samaan roop se uttar diya uh, haan, ek lambee, andheree ladakee jo usake bagal mein khadee hai. meree premika. oh, he! aapase milakar bahut achchha laga, sophee, mainne use aadha gale diya. mujhe lagata hai ki main thoda nashe mein tha. tips, kam se kam. haay ... chhavee, mainne saplaee kee. chhavee, sophee ne kaha aur kaushal kee or rukh kiya. aapane pahale kabhee usaka jikr nahin kiya? mainne vaapas baithakar unake aadaan-pradaan ka avalokan kiya, jo jald hee garm ho gaya. sambhaavit premika, eh? aur choonki vah enoreksik nahin thee, isalie main anumaan laga sakatee thee ki vah ek modal nahin thee. ameer baaba, bigadail baraat. ho sakata hai ki kaushal ka kariyar un sab se achchha nahin raha ho. vah vaastav mein ek bahut achchha sauda tha.

ankit aur pattharabaajee

 sophee kam ya jyaada motee nahin thee. kya mujhe ek ameer vasa madhy aayu varg ke aadamee ke saath baahar jaana hoga mera kariyar neeche jaata hai bhagavaan nahin main pree hoga umm main kya chaahoonga shaayad yah samay hoga ki main ek vaikalpik kairee vikalp nahin tha aur mera naamak hona chaahie tha aur main ise nahin chaahata tha ne kaha ki vah pooree tarah se chhote dalon mein shuroo ho gaya tha vah nishchit roop se chhote se paarts ko samaapt karana shuroo kar diya tha mujhe ek achchha baig mil gaya tha mujhe ek achchha vikalp tha mujhe pratibimbit karane ke lie ek achchha samay tha main ise aur adhik spasht roop se nahin sochata tha jab main nashe mein hoon main aur bhee spasht roop se sochata hoon ki inhen daayar karen aur inhen jeeten yah hai ki main apanee ichchhaon ko kam kar deta hoon lekin phir se yah hai ki main ek baaree se pyaar karata hoon aur phir bhee yah main bhee nahin chaahata kee jaroorat hai aur phir bhee yah raahat nahin hai lekin phir se yah hai ki main apane ke lie ek chhote se kaam nahin kar sakata hoon main aur bhee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur nahin kar sakata ke lie main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur nahin  bhee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin chaahata aur main aur nahin yah kaise muhaiya karaata hai aur main aapako yah nahin deta ki yah bhee nahin hai main aur bhee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek pattedaar hoon par jaen aur koee vaktavy nahin hai main aur  bhee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek abhinetree ko nahin deta main aur bhee ek hee ek bestaselar aur mera naam itihaas ke prshthon mein amar ban jaega ek bhikshu banana ek bura vikalp nahin tha log mere paas aaenge mere sabhee prakaar ke maamalon mein meree salaah ke lie poochhana hoga aur main har kisee ko bina kisee bhee aparaadh ko dhyaan mein daalane aur himaalay ko phir se shuroo karane ka nirnay lene par nirnay liya aur main hamesha ke lie dhyaan kendrit kar sakata hoon main bhee de sakata hoon aur mujhe hamesha se nahin de sakata hai main nahin hoon ek bhavishy mein meree bhavishy kee yojana baadhit ho gaee hai aasann mal par baithe ek lamba sundar vyakti ke saath ek lubhaane vaala sundar tee shart pahane hue neele aur bhayaanak joote ke saath milakar lagaaya gaya tha ve sabhee aankhon ka adhyayan karate hain aur unaka ek baar ho jaata hai aur main use aankhon se pahale ke lie apane aap ko dekhata hoon aur vah apane aankhon ko aaraam se nahin tha jab main use yaad karata hoon aur vah apane sire se nahin hai jab main use yaad karata hoon aur vah apane aankhon ko aaraam se nahin aaya tha aur main use aankhon se pahale nahin dekhata hoon aur main use aankhon se pahale nahin dekhata hoon vah mere lie ek baar nahin dekha gaya tha aur main use aankhon se pahale nahin dekhata hoon aur main use aankhon se nahin dekhata hoon aur use ya to ham nahin jaanate hain ki main apane aankhon ke lie ek baar apane aap ko pahale se hee dekha ya main use aabaadee ke lie apane aap ko ek baar nahin dekhata hoon main use ek ya adhik dhyaan dene ke lie nahin jaanata hoon vah main use aabaadee ke saath apane aap ko dekhata hoon vah apane aap ko ek se adhik nahin dekh pa rahe hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain vah apane aap ko ek se adhik nahin dekh pa rahe hain vah main use aankhen band kar deta hoon aur vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekh pa raha hai main aur use apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhata hoon main use ek ya adhik dhyaan dene ke lie nahin jaanata hoon vah main use aankhen theek se nahin jaanata hoon aur mere paas ek na kisee ke lie main ek avaruddh hoon main apane aap ko pahale se hee kisee bhee samay kee talaash mein hoon main ek nazar rakhata hoon main use ek ya adhik nahin dekha aur main use ek ya adhik nahin dekha aur main use ek ya adhik nahin dekha aur main use ek ya adhik nahin dekha aur main use ek ya adhik nahin dekha aur main use ek ya adhik dhyaan nahin diya main use ek ya adhik dhyaan dene ke lie apane aap ko ek ya adhik hatyaara raha hoon main ek nazar rakhata hoon aur main use ek ya adhik hee nahin dekhata hoon main use ek ya adhik hee nahin dekhata hoon aur vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhe gae hain main ek nazar rakhata hoon aur main use ek ya adhik nahin dekhata hoon vah main use khisakaana chaahata hoon aur vah apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekh paenge main ek nabee ke saath apane aap ko apane aap ko pahale se hee nahin dekhata hoon vah main use ke lie apane aap ko ek ya adhik hatyaara raha hoon main ek nazar rakhata hoon. tum nashe mein ho, usane mujhe pakad kar kaha. haan! mainne uttar diya, use paas pakad kar sangeet ke lie lalakaar raha tha. aur, patthar maar diya?  usane meree thuddee ko jhukaaya aur meree aankhon ka adhyayan kiya. haan! mainne phir se aapoorti kee. kyon? usane poochha. usane dekha ki vah kisee bhee tarah se daudane kee yojana bana raha tha. ek bahut hee chamakadaar din tha, mainne kaha bas. to mainne kiya. to kya aap nashe mein hain? ya patthar maar diya? nahin, main nahin hoon, unhonne kaha. kyon? main aapaka intazaar kar raha tha! usane aarop lagaaya. main hansa, usase lipat gaya aur mere kaanon mein uchhalate hue sangeet kee dhadakan par naachane laga. mera shareer usakee pooree tarah se phit hai. mainne chaar inch oonchee heels kee ek jodee pahanee huee thee, aur vah abhee bhee mujhase kuchh inch lamba tha. mujhe vo pasand hai. chinta na karen, main aapake saath yah sab phir se karoonga, mainne kaha. mujhe nahin lagata ki aapako ab aur peena chaahie. aur kharapatavaar ... unhonne kaha, chintit lag rahee hai. mainne usakee taraph dekha, apane baalon ko vaapas phadaphadaaya, mere sir ko kinaare kee taraph jhuka diya aur kaha, kya tum ek sharaabee ladakee se kahate ho? main kyon? oh, aap vog se un sundar modal ke lie istemaal kiya jaana chaahie? kya tum nahin ho? isalie main ise aapake lie nahin kaat raha hoon? kya aap mere saath majaak kar rahe hain? poora baar tumhaaree taraph dekh raha hai! tum vo hot ho jaise, dhoomrapaan, usane kaha, mujhe neeche dekh raha hai. mere shareer ke har inch mein usakee haan lete hue, itmeenaan se, phir bhee khushee se main sharama gaya. kisee tarah, yahaan tak ​​ki sharaab bhee taareeph par meree chetaavanee mein madad nahin karata hai. har baar mujhe badhaee dene ke lie mujhe sirph munh phula kar kyon laal hona padata hai? yah itana sharmanaak hai, usakee atyadhik ninda sindrom jo mujhe peedit hai! kya? usane poochha. vah meree pratikriya par chakit dikh raha tha. aapaka matalab tha ki, main unakee aankh se mila aur kaha. beshak mera matalab tha! mujhe tumhaare saath sone ke lie?  nahin. kyonki yahee sachchaee hai. usane gusse mein dekha oh. . .mam, vaastav mein, log aamataur par aisee baaten kahate hain ... kya aap jaanate hain? mujhe khed hai. mera matalab hai ki aap ko naaraaj nahin karana chaahie ... usane mujhe aadhee muskaan dee, bahut pyaaree, aap hain. tum paagal to nahin ho? mainne gambheerata se poochha. main jitana gambheer ho sakata tha, utanee gambheerata se, apanee sharaabee avastha ko dekhate hue. naah! main sirph majaak kar raha tha. vaastav mein. . main vaastav mein bura nahin maanoonga. kya? main sambhal kar chalane kee koshish kar raha tha. main dekh sakata tha ki usake honth hil rahe the. ve jo kah rahe the vah kabhee panjeekrt nahin tha. dhikkaar hai un seksee hothon ko! aapako meree jagah le jaana aur .. tumhe pata hain? mujhe nahin lagata ki mujhe is baat ka aitaraaz hoga ki vah palak jhapakae. usake chehare ka adhyayan karane ke lie usake hothon se. vah main tha meree aankhon door gambheer. mujhe ghutanon mein kamajoree mahasoos huee. aap isake lie bahut shaant hain, mainne kaha ki mainne use sharaab kauntar par kheench liya. main chaahata tha ki vah nashe mein aae aur ... tumhen pata hai?
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