parade ke peechhe

parade ke peechhe


kya yah pahale se kam nahin hai? mainne poochha. main us poshaak kee baat kar raha tha jise ham patrika ke vigyaapan kee shooting ke lie pahanane vaale the. kisee tarah, mujhe yaad hai ki yah lambe samay tak raha jab hamaare paas hamaaree phiting thee. yah pahalee baar nahin tha jab aisa hua tha aur tang, aaliya sahamat thee. kya hamen kuchh kahana chaahie? kya ham is sthiti mein hain?  usane poochha. ek pal ke lie isake baare mein socha. yah pichhale kuchh maheenon mein sabase bada aur sabase adhik bhugataan karane vaala anubandh tha.

parade ke peechhe


 aur kisee tarah, bhale hee aaliya mujhase kaheen adhik lambee aur sundar thee, usaka kariyar chattaanon par aur bhee adhik tha. yah ajeeb tha, kyonki bhale hee mainne khud ko uchit roop se aakarshak maana tha aur chehare kee visheshataon ko pasand kiya tha, phir bhee main alaliya ke kareeb khada tha. vah us tarah kee ladakee thee jisake baare mein log sochate hain ki vah raat mein sheg karatee hai. vah lagabhag paanch saal pahale phaishan udyog mein shaamil huee thee aur ek pal hit ho gaee thee. vah un ladakiyon mein se ek thee jo vaastav mein sirph hain modaling ke lie. meree tulana mein teen inch lambee, usake paas sabase chikanee aur sabase chikanee khaal thee, jisamen sabase adhik cheekabons aur aankhen theen jo vaastav mein bina mekap ke bhee chamakatee theen. vah bhee sarvotkrsht enjeleena jolee paut tha! ek brek lene aur vigyaapan kee duniya mein utarane ka phaisala karane se pahale usane poore do saal tak raimp par raaj kiya tha. aur phir, vah neeche chalee gaee thee.

parade ke peechhe


 logon ne kaha ki usane apana sparsh kho diya aur usane unhen sahee saabit kar diya. raimp se us brek ne usake kariyar ko prabhaavit kiya tha. aur haan, isamen ek ladaka bhee shaamil tha. hamesha anapropheshanal tareeke ke bhoot hote hain jisamen usane lagabhag teen saal pahale abhinay kiya tha phir bhee usake kariyar par asar pada. vah sirph teees kee thee, aur haalaanki hamane ise kabhee nahin kaha, ham donon jaanate the ki usaka kariyar apane ant mein tha. ise bachaane ke lie kisee chamatkaar se kam nahin hoga. ya ho sakata hai ki thoda sa so raha ho. mera kariyar kaaphee behatar sthiti mein tha. lekin jab main usake saath tha, mainne naatak kiya ki ham ek hee naav par the. mere lie yah sochana kaaphee mushkil tha ki main ek nakaaraatmak vyakti nahin tha, lekin mere saamane apane kariyar kee chinta ne use aisa mahasoos karaaya ki usakee taraph se ek dost tha. isalie jab bhee main usake saath tha, mainne hamesha abhinay karane ka khyaal rakha jaise ki mera jeevan bhee khatm ho gaya. "aap sahee kah rahe hain, mainne dheemee aavaaz mein kaha. ham kuchh nahin kar sakate. gosh, mujhe isase bahut napharat hai. mujhe bahut apamaanit mahasoos ho raha hai," usane kaha. mujhe bhee, mainne kaha, aur mera matalab tha. hamaare dvaara pahane gae aautaphit itane chhote aur tang the ki mujhe chalane aur saans lene mein pareshaanee ho rahee thee. hamen jaana chaahie. ve hamaare lie bula rahe hain, aaliya ne kaha. ham set par gae aur mainne vyavastha dekhane ke lie chaaron or dekha. donon ke alaava ham mein se, vahaan teen any modal the, samaan roop se ghrnit poshaak pahane hue the. kya ham kuchh ilektroniks braand ke vigyaapan ke lie shooting nahin kar rahe the, patrikaon aur bainaron mein jaane ke lie? hamen us uddeshy ko poora karane ke lie itana daraavana klaid kyon hona chaahie? jab mainne ladakiyon ko chalate dekha, to yah itana ashleel lag raha tha ki mainne bhagavaan ko dhanyavaad diya ki yah ek stil-photo shoot tha. agar main us tarah dikhata tha jab main bhee chala gaya tha, jo mainne shaayad kiya tha, main duniya ko ise skreen par dekhane dene se pahale mar gaya hota. shaayad yahee vajah thee ki mera kariyar kabhee bhee pheyaranes kreem se aage nahin badh paaya. kyonki main samajhauta karane kee pooree avadhaarana mein kabhee nahin tha. jald hee, hamane sabhee prakaar ke ilektronik upakaranon ke saath kaam karana shuroo kar diya aur mujhe ummeed thee ki yah jald hee khatm ho jaega taaki main ghar ja sakoon. aisa laga jaise main kuchh porn philm mein kaam kar raha hoon-haalaanki meree abhivyakti mein yah nahin dikha, main is baare mein soch raha tha ki main kaam karate samay raat ke khaane ke lie kya banaoonga. photograaphar mujhe ek steeriyo sistam ke saath poz dene ke lie nirdeshit kar raha tha, jab any modalon mein se ek mere paas aaya aur kaha, mistar vallee aapako dekhana chaahate hain. mere? abhee? mainne poochha, yakeen nahin to mainne sahee suna tha. shree vallee us din jis ilektroniks kampanee kee shooting kar rahe the, us samay ham ek bhaageedaar the. use ek modal se milane kee aavashyakata kyon hai jo sirph apane braand ka vigyaapan kar raha tha vah mujhase pare tha. ya ho sakata hai..nahin- haraamee kameene. haan. vah hare kamare mein hai, usane apanee tarjanee kee or ishaara kiya. theek hai, dhanyavaad, mainne kaha. aaliya ne set ke us paar se meree nazaren milaeen aur apanee bhaun uchaka dee. mistar vallee? mainne phon kiya, green room ke baahar khada tha. yah kaun hai? andar se aavaaj aaee. chhavee mukharjee. aap mujhe dekhana chaahate the, sar? are haan, chhavee. andar aao. daravaaja khula hai, usane kaha. unakee aavaaj mein achaanak bahut josh tha. main sahaj hee satark ho gaya. jee shreemaan? mainne poochha ki main apane aap ko andar jaane deta hoon. vah aise sabhee logon kee tarah, madhyam aayu varg ke, pot-belid, soot pahane aadamee ke saath ek aakarshak heyaralain aur sana hua daant tha. jo hamesha seeng vaale aur tatolane vaale hote the. mainne daravaaje ko thoda ajar chhod diya tha aur khade hone ka dhyaan rakha jitana sambhav ho utana kareeb, bina ise spasht kie. ve log bade aham mudde rakhate hain. vishesh roop se vaastav mein doshee chhavee ... andar aate hain, andar aate hain. baitho, vah usake saamane ek sophe par baith gaya. to ab drshy mein ek sophe bhee hai. paraphekt ’darasal, sar, mainne beech mein hee shooting chhod dee. aur mujhe vaastav mein ise vaapas lene kee aavashyakata hai. kya mere baare mein baat karane ke lie kuchh jarooree tha? haan, haan, usane bukhaar mein sir hilaaya aur phir se sophe par let gaya. mere saath ek kap kophee le lo. mujhe yakeen hai ki paanch minat shooting ko koee nukasaan nahin pahunchaenge. bilkul, sar, mainne kaha aur sophe par baith gaya. aaliya ko pata tha ki main kahaan hoon. aur kam se kam ham donon ko alag karane vaalee ek mej thee, mainne socha. to, cheejen kaise chal rahee hain? aap thoda sangharsh kar rahe hain, mainne suna hai? har modal nahin hai? mainne socha. main theek kar raha hoon, shukriya, mainne kadak muskaan ke saath kaha. khair, yah sunakar bahut achchha laga usane kaha aur mujhe dekhakar muskuraaya. main vaapas muskuraaya. nakalee, nishchit roop se. main vaastav mein vah kya kar raha tha baahar nahin kar saka. khaasataur par isalie ki usane ek baar bhee mere pooree tarah se prakat pair nahin dekhe. vaise bhee, chhaavee, mere paas prastaav ke lie ek vyavasaay prastaav hai jo aapake kariyar e yoo shit ke lie chamatkaar karega. aap is chhotee see paartee mein kyon nahin aate hain jo aaj raat mere paas hai? unhonne sujhaav diya. mal. mal. zaroor, sar, mainne kaha, kamare ko chhodane ke lie utsuk. yah aap modal hain aur agar aap mumbee mein rahate hain, to main aapako kuchh mupht salaah doonga-kabhee bhee kisee ameer aadamee kee jagah par aayojit chhotee-chhotee paartiyon mein na jaen. in logon ke lie, vaastavik paartiyaan kabhee bhee chhotee nahin hotee hain aur na hee kabhee kisee ke sthaan par aayojit kee jaatee hain. isalie, yadi aap jaane kee galatee karate hain, to ho sakata hai ki aap unakee paartee mein ekamaatr maargadarshak hon. vahaan gaya. ho gaya. pratibhaashaalee! main aapako apane parivaar se milavaana pasand karoonga, yah bahut achchha hoga, sar, mainne kaha aur chhodane ke lie uth gaya. chhavee, ruko!  usane peechhe se pukaara. aapako mere bete se milane mein maza aaega. vah aap par bahut utsuk hai. . oh? mainne viraam diya. to yah vah kya ho raha tha? mujhe vaastav mein kuchh bura lagane laga tha ki usakee aankhen ek baar bhee mere stanon se nahin bhatakatee theen. yah lagabhag mahasoos kiya ki vah mujhe vaastavik sambhog ke lie bas chaahata tha. koee phoraple nahin. aur yah behad apamaanajanak hai. ab yah samajh mein aaya; vah mujhe seks ke lie chaahata tha, haan. lekin apane lie nahin. apane bete ke lie! haan, vah kaaphee aakarshak ladaka hai. mujhe yakeen hai ki vah hai, shreemaan, mainne kaha, sar par jor dete hue, majaakiya lahaje mein. main tab tak daravaaje ke baahar tha. tum itanee jaldee mein kyon ho?  usane poochha aur kuchh logon ne hamaaree or dekha. mujhe shooting par vaapas jaana hai, sar. mainne unhen lambe samay tak intajaar karane ke lie rakha hai, oh, ve bura nahin maanenge. unhen pata hai ki aap mere saath hain. bilkul mainne kaha aur dekha isaka kya matalab hai? kuchh nahin, mainne kaha, is baar dheere se. main aisa sochana nahin chaahata tha? tum door ek drshy. tum phoohad kamabakht!  vah achaanak garajata hai aur har koee hamaaree or dekhata hai. kya aap kah rahe hain ki main aapase chhedachhaad kar raha tha? mujhe batao. kya aap yah kah rahe hain ki- main kuchh bhee nahin kah raha hoon, sar. mujhe aur- kya mainne bhee itana kuchh dekha jitana tum? kya mainne mainne aisa kabhee nahin kaha, mainne kaha. vaapas kaam karane ke lie aap kahate hain? aap bina kisee kaaran ke ek seen kriet kar rahe hain sar. phir? kya kiya are haan? ab ek sadak ke kinaare veshya mujhe bataegee ki kya pratidhvani paryaapt hai-?  apanee bhaasha par dhyaan den, mistar vallee, ek pharm, purush kee aavaaz ne hastakshep kiya jise mainne dekha aur dekha ki ek ladaka apanee shuruaatee bisavaan dasha mein mere bagal mein khada tha. vallee ne dekha. appallaid. ’aur narak aap kaun hain? - isase koee phark nahin padata. maaphee maangen, usane tejee se kaha. main abhee bhee chhah pheet lamba tha, aur ek stabal dvaara aanshik roop se chhipa hua tha, jo use ghoor raha tha. dubala phrem. unake chehare par aarop lagaaya gaya tha ki vah teen dinon se munda nahin tha. aur usakee aankhon mein ek asaamaany tvinkal tha, jisane use haan kar diya, haan, yah varnan karane ke lie ekadam sahee shabd tha ki yah jeevit hai. uddhaarakarta kisake lie? use ek prastaav dene ke lie ek laakh modal maare jaenge? vallee ne mujhe dekhate hue kaha, jinda hai. vaastav mein bahut garm hai. vaastav mein aap kee tarah, vaastav mein .. lekin shaayad nahin, saahab. kya aap aaj raat apane sthaan par hone vaalee chhotee paartee ke nimantran ke lie maaphee maang sakate hain? mainne poochha. mere chehare par sabase eemaanadaar abhivyakti. 1, uh. vallee turant ladakhada gae. is udyog mein do saal ek lambe samay ke the. aap bata sakate hain ki isaka kya matalab hai. haan, sar? aapane kuchh kaha?  mainne poochha, jor se. tee bas .. kya?  mainne use ek bhayankar ghoor diya, kisee tarah, ab jab main jaanata tha ki set par har koee tha jo main kuchh minat pahale tha, akele usake saath green room mein. ya shaayad yah kuchh hamen dekh raha tha, mujhe bahaadur mahasoos hua. bahut bahaadur. garm aadamee ke saath pooree tarah se philmee tareeke se khade ho jao tee bas aap mere parivaar se milana chaahate the, unhonne kaha, logon ke chaaron or dekh rahe hain, unhen chakama de rahe hain aur unhen aashvast hone kee ummeed kar rahe hain. aapaka parivaar? aapaka matalab hai aapaka beta? vah jo bahut hee aakarshak hai aur bahut utsuk hai. mujh par? mainne apane bagal mein maasoomiyat se poochha, jo mere bachaav mein aaya tha, ek samay mein usane apane hothon ko shuddh kiya. shree vallee ko aamantrit karane ke lie aapaka bahut-bahut dhanyavaad. lekin, mujhe lagata hai ki mujhe paas hona hai. mere paas ek tithi hai, umm ... aaj raat yah ladaka, mainne kaha ki mere bagal mein khade garm aadamee kee or ishaara karate hue. ohh ... sahee. garm aadamee saath khela. ab agar aap hamen maaph karenge, to hamaare paas raip karane ke lie ek photo shoot hoga? mainne kaha. vallee jara jor se hila. diya chalo chalen, madhu? mainne kaha aur garm aadamee ko baakee chaalak dal se door kheench liya, unhonne kaha, ek baar ham sabhee ke jhumake se baahar the. kaaphee ek ladaakoo, tum ho!  main turant sharama gaya. aap in logon ko nahin jaanate. ve sabhee mujhe pata hai ki cheejen kaisee hain. mainne pichhale paanch saal se indastree mein hain.  aapake paas? mujhe khed hai, mujhe nahin pata "tushaar mehara, usane apana haath badhaaya. main ek photograaphar hoon aah haan! mainne aapaka naam pahale suna hai. kya aap vah nahin hain jo vog ke lie kaam karata hai? mainne poochha.  sthaayee aadhaar par kaam par rakha jaana achchha hai kyonki mere dimaag ko padhate hue, unhonne kaha, nahin, us phreelaans ko nahin. main deeng maar raha hoon ya kuchh bhee nahin kar raha hoon, lekin main haal hee mein apane kariyar mein bahut achchha kar raha hoon aur mere paas kuchh ophar hain is vaqt. noee ne mera nais haath mein de diya. vaastav mein, mere lie baazaar mein itanee maang hai, ki shaayad hee mujhe samay bhee mile-  theek hai. to ab yah deeng maarane ke kareeb hai, mainne use muskuraate hue kaat diya. tum mujh par ek ladakee ke roop mein bahut achchhee tarah se chhaapane kee koshish karane ka aarop nahin laga sakate, kya aap kar sakate hain?  vah vaapas muskuraaya. aur ab tum bhee chhedakhaanee kar rahe ho. mujhe maaph kar do agar main thoda rookhee hoon. lambe samay se ek ladakee ke saath flart karane kee zaroorat nahin hai. aamataur par, ve- aap sabhee par girate hain, kya ve nahin? main poochhata hoon.  kam ya jyaada, haan,  usane bina ruke kaha. aap apane aap mein bahut bhare hue hain, mainne kaha aur chhodane ke lie badal gaya. mere paas ek din ke lie paryaapt tha. koee raasta nahin tha jisase main pooree shooting se guzar raha tha. aur main abhee bhee apane phoohad poshaak pahane hue tha, mujhe achaanak yaad aaya. naah! main bas us tarah se kaary karata hoon. mainne kaheen padha ki ladakiyaan bure logon ko khodatee hain. lekin yah kaam nahin karata hai mujhe dar nahin hai, mainne kaha aur chala gaya. ruko! unhonne kaha, mere lie chal raha hai. aap kahaan ja rahe hain? "badalane ke lie. usane mujhe baalon ke panje se dekha, aur usane mujhe thand lag gaee. vah ek pal ke lie kho gaya lag raha tha, lekin khud ko bade kareene se ikattha kiya. usane apana gala saaph kiya aur poochha, aur, baad mein. us? ghar. tum, mujhe lagata hai? lekin phir, hamaaree taareekh ke baare mein kya? kya taareekh?  mainne poochha. jis ek ke baare mein aapane vallee ko bataaya tha? ham tab tak chenjing room mein pahunch chuke the. mainne muskura kar use dekha aur andar jaane ke lie daravaaja khola. kam se kam mujhe apana naam to batao. usane kaha. mainne ek sekand ke lie socha. philmon ko yaad rakhana. jisamen naayika us ladake ko apana naam nahin bataatee hai aur use yah pata lagaane ke lie sangharsh karana padata hai? main is tarah se karana chaahata tha. shashikala ya pushpa ya kuchh aur. lekin doosare vichaar par mainne apana man badal liya-nahin, yah chipak sakata hai. har baar jab ham mile to shashikala ko bulaane kee kalpana karo. bilkul nahin! nahin, mainne javaab diya. kya? kyon? oh ab chhodie bhee! tushaar chakaraaya hua lag raha tha. mainne apana sir hilaaya, us par meethee muskaan dee aur usake chehare par daravaaja band kar diya, use baahar chhod diya.

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